Today Is The Anniversary

Today is the three year anniversary of a major suicide attempt. I guess every suicide attempt is major but I say that meaning that this was the one I had planned and thought about ahead of time. While not eating for ten days would usually have the same effect I had been starving myself for a good two and a half years before that attempt and it was a combination ED moment and suicide attempt. But taking 50 aspirin pills, that was just a suicide attempt. Looking back I have to say that I have come a long way from the person I was three years ago downing those pills. I have grown a lot and done a lot of work to get myself to where I am today. I can't believe it. I won't say that there aren't some days that I might wish I hadn't woken up three years ago tomorrow, but it's not a constant thought. It's been a long three years and so much has happened. I've graduated from high school and gone off to college. I've been in a relationship that didn't last and am in a relationship that is amazing. I have gone to college parties and studied my ass off. And it's all been worth it. I have met some amazing people along the way as well as some not so amazing people. I have lost my virginity and truly loved someone and been loved back. I have made mistakes and learned to accept that. My relationship with my mother has not changed much but my brother and I are closer and my dad is happier. Who can say why I have been changed and blessed with these people and relationships but I believe that I have been changed for the better.