I have not posted here in a while. Life has been absolutely insane. It just seems like I've had one thing after another come up and try to push me down. I have been struggling for a bit but recently a sad event really opened my eyes and I have started eating normally again but the guilt is so strong. I still see with the eyes of ED when I look in the mirror. I cannot get his voice out of my head. I know that if I go to the gym I will work myself into the ground so I have tried to stay away from it. I know that I have been depressed. I know because of my thoughts and desires. I really want to do whatever I can to hurt myself. I am just so tired all the time. I have trouble concentrating. I just need life to get a little easier and have not so much to do. I need a break and it doesn't seem like I'm going to get one.
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