Reframed Thoughts

·      -   I am seeing myself through the filter of my ED and not as I am in reality

·         People say I am kind and nice

·       -  My ED makes me selfish and focus on myself and getting what I want

·         I was in the 15 of my class in high school and I got into MHC and maintain above a 3.0 GPA. If I was stupid I would not be able to do so.

·       -  The only person who is judging me is me.

·        - There are things I am grateful to be able to do with my body.

·         -I may not be able to love myself but there are many who love me.

·         -Every human being deserves a chance to be happy, healthy and have a life. I am not less worthy than others.

·         -No one deserves to be hurt or in pain, including me.

·         -I need food to live. It nourishes my body and helps me think and function.

·         -Fats are what my brain is made of and functions on. It is how I am able to do my school work.

·         -I do my best to be kind and compassionate.

·         -I am a bit creative.

·         -I have really close friends.

·         -I am human and therefore have worth.

·         -I know I am loved.

·         -I have been in recovery before and can do it again.

·         -I hate myself now but I can learn to love myself.

·         -Dan, Kari, Alexa, Sam, Stephanie, and others love and care about me.

·         -I go to a difficult school and am making good grades. While I work hard, I also have to be relatively intelligent to do so. My team at Klarman have reviewed my growth charts to determine my range. They closely moniter my weight and would not make me fat. Obviously Dan finds me, not only not ugly, but also pretty and beautiful or he wouldn’t be with me.

·         -I do my best and that is all I can do. At times I may feel like I fall short but I can always try harder next time.

·         -Academically I have not failed anything for as long as I can remember. In life the only time I can fail is when I do not learn from my mistakes and/or if I stay down and don’t get back up when I fall, or if I give up.

·         -I may not care about myself but others do. Also, just because it feels like no one cares does not mean it’s true.

·         -I need for to live and function. It is okay to eat. Eating nourishes my body and allows me to do things. My body need and can handle differing amounts of food.

·         -Food is good and allows me to function and be me. There are even foods I like and enjoy eating.

·         -I am uncomfortable in my body because I am in my range and I haven’t been at a healthy weight for a while.

·        - My thighs touch, yes, but that is okay. It is normal and healthy for some people’s thighs to touch. I am at a healthy weight. When my thighs did not touch I was very sick and unhealthy.

·        - I am at a healthy weight. If I lose weight I may easily slide back into behaviors use, become unhealthy and risk damaging my body even more.

·        - I feel like my body is too big but again I am at a healthy weight. Yes it is uncomfortable but I can sit with these feelings and thoughts and not engage in behaviors. I will one day learn to be okay with myself and my body.

·        - I am following my meal plan and on a maintenance meal plan. My body needs food and if left to my ED I would not eat anything and still feel like I am eating too much.

·        - I have been in recovery before and I can do it again. This time I will have more coping skills and knowledge on my side.

·        - I am at a healthy weight now. My old body was sickly, unhealthy and unattractive.

·        - My stomach is not flat but it is not flabby. It is just covered with skin.

·        - 80lbs is WAY, WAY, WAY too little to weight for someone of my age and height.

·        - People say I was too skinny at my lowest weight and that I needed help.

·        - I am in my range and need to stay there.

·        - I deserve recovery. Everyone deserves recovery. I am human and therefore not a piece of shit. I am in my range and therefore not fat. People find me beautiful.

·        - Because I am in my range I am not comfortable in my body. I hope one day to be comfortable in my body.

·        - People do not find excessively skinny/boney people attractive. Looking sickly and ill is not only unhealthy but also off-putting. Dan finds me attractive now and found me attractive at a higher weight.

·        - I will not stop losing at a few pounds. I will spiral out of control and it will always be ‘just a few pounds.’

·        - I am in the low to mid section of my range which is where my body wants to be and where I am healthy.

·        - It is more than the food. Therapy and journaling are good places to explore this. I have a strong sense of will and I am stubborn. These traits can be used to my advantage or disadvantage. I choose the former.

·        - Not listening to my ED and staying on my meal plan shows more strength, willpower, and courage than any other action.