Some Days...

Some days it is really hard, if feels like a battle, because in a sense it is. Everyday is so hard. These thoughts, these feelings, they don't go away. Sometimes I just want to shut them up, other times I really want to listen to them. I do not know if I can keep fighting but every day I try. I try to fight for recovery. But it is draining. It is so hard. I just want to give in sometimes and just stop eating just waste away into nothing.